First post in Amman, Jordan :)

It has been a little more than two weeks since I arrived in Jordan. There are a lot of things that God has been reminding me.

1) God does not use experience, but rather, He works through His spirit and his will. His will is the manifestation of power. Before him, nothing matters except for the cross. We are called to be committed to Him. Rather than doing something good, or having many talents, God is looking for people whose hearts are committed to Him.

2) One repetitive thing that kept on happening was whenever I felt tired, even to the point where I was sincerely thinking about resting back at the hotel, those were the days when God poured out all the way more in the souls that I got to met.

3) being an ambassador of Christ is literally one of the hardest thing that I’ve tried and failed at. Becoming like Jesus is impossible, and it makes complete sense that I;m trying in vain because I can never reach the perfection that God requires. However, John 15 continuously pops up in my mind- that I am to always abide in Him. When I move by his power rather than on my own, God works. That is far greater than anything I can ever accomplish in my lifetime.

4) In everything that we do, we carry the name of J*sus Chr*st, and there is power in the name.

5) The word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thought and attitudes of heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God;s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of Him to whom we must give account. (Hebrews 4:12-13). I have a tendency to think of my frustrations as persecution, but truth be told, they are nothing compared to what Jesus; disciples faced during the first century. These ancestors of our faith had something that was not of them, but something that was of the heavenly realm. Their strength and their boldness in front of death was not from human origin. They had the cross, and they had His word, and that was more than enough to sustain them through their trials and suffering. I have been asking for boldness in my time in Jordan, but I still didn’t think about the aftermath of asking for such boldness. 

6) I love to feed on that love from people, sometimes to a point where I would give up sharing the full Gospel because of the fear of them turning away from me. Do I have the full Gospel in me? If so, why do I limit Him whose words are living and active, sharper than any double edged sword, just because of that possibility that the soul that I am talking to may feel uncomfortable? As I was thinking God's Words is power. Even families that have been having fun, getting know us and opening their homes to us, strangers, shut their hearts towards us as soon as we started to open the word of God. Why do we complicate our lives by adding knowledge to our faith that we never apply? The message of the cross is foolishness. The people of darkness will never understand, nor comprehend our bold and stupid acts of proclaiming the coming King.

7) We proclaim that we are the fragrance of Chr*st, which smells like death to those who are dying, but it is life to those who believe. There are so much stronghold to be broken all over JLand. We break these bondage with worship. When we worship, the place is shaken. As they hear the name Jesus, their hearts are shaken. J*sus alone shakes the things that cannot be shaken.